Pushing the Limit
There are those that while in the world pushed the limit in everything they did. I was one of those. I Guess I could never do anything halfway, it was either full-tilt or not at all. Now that's a great thing if what you’re doing is constructive, but of course it's not so hot if it's destructive to yourself or others.
Most of the time in my life, thankfully, it was only destructive to myself. I say thankfully because if I had hurt anyone in the past I would rather it be me than others.
The trouble is the repercussion I received from the result of my actions made my life filled with all sorts of consequences I didn't want to walk through.
Our choices we have control over, the resulting consequences are up to God.
Yet when in the middle of our actions we sometimes either don't care about the consequences or don't think about them at all.
What's funny about that whole thing is when we receive the result of our wrong actions we sometimes act surprised as it we weren't the person that did the deed in the first place.
Way to go Adam!
It was "that woman you gave me God", or "the sun was in my eyes", or "I tripped on a rock", you fill in the blanks.
OK so there is a positive
Remember I said above there is a positive to that type of personality?
When I yielded my life to the Holy One these many years ago that part of my personality which tends toward making me choose unreserved action lent itself to serving Him as well.
I jumped into the Kingdom of God with both feet. I was so hungry for the bread of the word that I gorged myself on it and that food fueled the fire of my kingdom life.
My thirst for His presence drove me to Him and God was faithful to use me although I was far more naive about His kingdom purpose than I would like to admit at this point. Basically I didn't have a clue. I can remember my dad, who has now go home to be with the Lord telling my first pastor, "Gary never does anything half-way". Was that ever the truth, he had seen it my whole life.
The tendency toward complacency
Yet taking everything above into consideration our spiritual life seems so many times to parallel our natural life. We full-tilt kinda people, when we're young and fervent walk unreservedly into the fire and without worrying about getting burnt. However when we get older after we've experienced the heat a few times might become a little reserved on our actions. Or for that matter as we get a little older we might say "I know better now", or "I'm not like that anymore".
The problem is that sometimes we haven't become more mature, we've simply become complacent, we just accept status quo. God never wants us to do that. The Lord would rather have us hot or cold. We all know what he does to those who are tepid (Rev. 3:16).
Life on the edge
Although God loves everyone perfectly, I think He has gets great joy from those that are willing to live life on the edge with Him
You know, the ones that have no doubt He'll part the sea or provide the manna.
I really think the heart of God is pleased with those that will go anywhere and do anything to serve Him; they will eat any food that's presented to them with thankfulness, and sleep on the floor not worrying about their comfort.
These are the ones with the heart of a missionary to the world at large, the ones that will serve God at any cost.
Listen to the Lord Himself
Mt 16:24 24
Then Jesus said to His disciples, "If anyone wishes to come after Me, he must deny himself, and take up his cross and follow Me.
"And everyone who has left houses or brothers or sisters or father or mother or children or farms for My name's sake, will receive many times as much, and will inherit eternal life.